How to create a safe vessel to write from

Iโ€™m trying, Iโ€™m really trying to get on with revision, transcribing voice notes and rewriting, while the drilling continues upstairs. our Athens building block is incredibly noisy with constant building works ongoing. I’ve my AirPods in at high volume streaming Smooth Jazz on Spotify.

I donโ€™t think I can do it . . . Iโ€™m good at anything that requires connecting to others, #MyMenopausalMiddle with Moira’s Wealthy Minders for instance. But writing is a long, slow, solitary journey.

This might be just another displacement activity, but right now I need to be softly held somehow, that’s why I’m asking:

How can I create a vessel to hold myself safe? 

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Feeling Frazzled

Iโ€™m eating chocolate and feel lazy and fat, her message said, I hope you feel better than me. 

Nop, I’m not doing any better than you, I wrote back. . . . Swap chocolate for ouzo (while in Greece) and weโ€™re in the same canoe.

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Hope

Itโ€™s re-write time and from the muddy pool of shitty drafts, a small jewel appears โ€“ at least I think itโ€™s a jewel. I rinse it, I dry it and polished it down to the bone.

What’s left is a mere smidgen of a vignette, but it gives me hope. – A different kind of hope from what I had back then, – I hope. . .

He woke me in the middle of the night. โ€œYou have to help me now Vigdis,โ€ I remember his stuttered whisper. His silhouette looked pitiful in the arched opening heโ€™d cut – between my two basement rooms – years earlier. His figure crooked and unstable against the light falling in behind him.

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